I start the year like everyone else. I make new year’s resolutions. Last year my resolution was to take my son on more adventures before he started school in September. Boy did we have some awesome adventures last year. See in 2018 I was scared to take my boy out on my own. I would get palpitations and anxiety just thinking about it.
The thoughts of what could go wrong would fill my head, and I would be left having sleepless nights and feeling ashamed that I couldn’t even take my son to the park without feeling anxious unless someone was with me. I was filled with thoughts of what other parents would think if he misbehaved, or he fell over and bumped his head. It was silly little things but to me it meant I couldn’t breathe.
So January 2019 I made myself a pact. I spoke to my group of friends and told them my plans and they helped immensely. My first journey out was to the local duck park. A simple journey which was only 10 minutes away, but the whole time driving there I was shaking like a leaf. But we got there in one piece and fed the ducks and even went for a run. Yes he had a tantrum when it was time to come home, and when we ran out of duck food but the world didn’t end. Nobody looked at me judging me. Most people who did look, were sympathetic.
The thing I didn’t realise but I do now, is that every parent who has ever ventured out with a toddler, has dealt with the tantrums and falls. They have been there, they have done that. So they do look but they also sympathise. This taught me a valuable lesson. When I am out in tesco’s or anywhere there are children that are a bit bored and kicking off, I talk to the parents. I sympathise with them and it feels good.
This led on to a lot more visits to the park and my confidence grew. Eventually by September I had booked for me and Gabe to go camping with my older brother, his girlfriend and my nephew. I was terrified at first and kept thinking of things that could go wrong either on the way there or whilst we were there. But I did it, I forced myself to go and we had the best time. This year I am vowing to do it again. But this time I will be taking my husband and we are going to have a whale of a time. You see once I crossed that line of taking him to the park, I managed to build up my confidence and to ignore the people and the looks. If my son is having a tantrum, I know he is either tired or hungry and I need to get him home. So I do what’s right for us and I have learnt to ignore the haters.
Now Coffee Monkey has grown and has had some major achievements this past year. We launched our coffee on the 11th January 2019 and it has gone from strength to strength. I still love my mugs and that is where my passion lies completely but I do love my coffee. And so do a lot of other people. That much in fact that it went through a blind taste test against a giant retailer of takeaway coffee and won. (You can watch the video here).
I was also asked to be the key note speaker at a small business event in Eccles, this was definitely one of my proudest moments this year. I have never done public speaking before and this really did test me to the limits. Lot’s of sleepless nights, and rehersal’s on the lead up to this but I did it, I got up there and I spoke in front of a few people and it felt great. I would love to do it again.
Then there was serving my coffee to over 100 people at Pods up North event in Manchester. I loved doing this event and this will always be a highlight of 2019 for me. I met the wonderful Craig Parkinson AKA the Caddy from Line of Duty and had the honour of making him his own one of a kind mug. I presented this to him on the day. I shook like a leaf but it was so worth it.
Not forgetting that I won 3 Twitter awards in 2019 all in around 7 days. This was so exciting and boosted my confidence. I also featured in an amazing blog post in the run up to Christmas which you can read here. So all in all I am hoping 2020 is going to be just as awesome as 2019, if not more. I have a lot of things in the pipeline that I am working on and towards. None of this can be revealed yet but it will be, in good time. Look out for hints on my Facebook page.
My new year’s resolutions this year are to get more involved in the local community; I started this last weekend when I, my mum, my husband and Gaby went to volunteer at the junior fun run in our local park. So this is my accountability. I give you all permission to shout at me if you don’t see regular updates of me volunteering. If you would like to share any of your resolutions with me don’t forget to leave me a comment below.
For now I am going to wish you all a happy and prosperous new year and all the best for 2020. If you would like to keep up to date with everything I have going on, then you can follow me on the following social media pages. Bye for now. xx
If you would like to read about our adventures then you can read more here.